Down To The Last Dime

I've never been in such a tight spot financially in my life. I have not received any assistance financially so far through the divorce process, something that is being addressed quickly, as my boys will soon be the victims of my spouse's financial attack against me. I hate that they are so fragile in this process and placed in the middle — indirectly or not.

For two months, I've held the house stable, paying all of the bills, on my own — but obviously, the pennies are running low. The value of money is starting to lose its hold on me. I never was a very materialistic person, and always have been a penny pincher. But, when you have very few pennies to pinch, I guess that quest seems somewhat futile.

I'm adequately pursuing assistance from other means, food co-ops, subsidized health care — anything that will help me stay above the zero balance. I've had offers for financial assistance from my church, which is embarrassing on one hand, but on the other, I'm grateful that others know the financial repercussions of divorce and what I'm going through. I'm not on my own in my financial woes.

I can't help but be angry at my spouse for leaving his children without proper funding — he's just holding out, hoarding his money. He was always the spender in our family. I wonder if his materialism will ever lessen. His attacks on me continue.