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Thank you First Wives World readers for all of your comments! I enjoy reading them and appreciate your insight.

In my last entry, I complained about unpacking my things and cleaning the new apartment. However, it's amazing what one can find. I have no idea why I felt the need to pack magazines I will never read again and endless amounts of hangers, but oh well. The one item I did unearth was an old journal of mine.

I started journaling when I separated from my ex-husband. Many songs have been pulled from the words and emotions tied to them. As I read, I realized just how far I had come. I have been divorced over five years and my mother was right: Time does heal. When you're going through something as traumatic as a divorce, it's hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel--meaning, where your life is going or how you're going to make it through. I sat down and read my entries about feeling lost, and concerns about whether I'd ever find a love filled with respect and trust.

I also read entries filled with anger towards my ex and I was surprised by how scathing they were even for a reserved Swede like me! However, again, it was part of my healing process to express the anger. It doesn't do any good to keep it all locked up inside because it eats away at your self-esteem and confidence.

So, as I placed the dog-eared journal back in a box, I smiled: There is a light at the end of the tunnel and it sure feels good. Have a listen to my song "New Beginnings" by clicking on the download below.

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