I mentioned in a previous post how I feel like a student of life again. The lessons I'm learning are more difficult than the ones I had to learn as a child. Say "please" and "thank you." Don't interrupt. Turn off the lights when you leave a room. I guess they are good lessons, but the ones I am learning now are a bit different and way more challenging.

This Christmas has taught me about letting go of the past. I won't see my parents or my brother this year for Christmas. It has bothered me immensely that this won't happen. It is the first time I won't see them for the holidays. Schedules and some health problems have made it impossible. Their absence has crossed my mind every day and it saddens me.

However, this is a situation I can't fix it and it's out of my control. I'm trying to let go and see the beauty in a Christmas with my fiancé's family, but my heart wants to experience the special traditions I've had all my life. I guess I can look to the future instead of the past, and hope the scenario will be different next year.

Accepting change has never been my strongest trait, and letting go is definitely something I do not excel at. Perhaps as I get older, I will become a better student.