Since things with my boyfriend took a turn toward serious, thoughts of my ex, Levi, have been invading my brain again. During the day, I can, and do, push them away.

When I'm sleeping, however, it's a whole different story. I keep having all of these weird dreams about him, and I don't know how to make them stop.

For instance, last night I had a dream that I was in a ramshackle cabin with my boyfriend, Aaron. The place was filthy, I mean really, really gross; there were rats all over the place, food everywhere, etc. Aaron and I are lying in bed, and he announces that he is going to go to the kitchen to make tea.

Aaron leaves the room and moments later, Levi walks in and climbs in bed with me. Levi looked like himself, but something about him felt off — he felt hollow, if that makes any sense.

Anyway, he gets in bed with me, and I'm happy that he's there and we kiss. Then, Aaron walks in and is obviously upset, Levi asks him to leave, and he does.

As soon as Aaron leaves, Levi gets out of bed and looks at me with a very satisfied look and tells me he'll be right back. He never comes back, and I am left there in this dark, dirty, disgusting cabin, all alone feeling hollow and empty.

I woke up with the same feeling.

What does this mean? What is going on here? I thought I was over this, and now suddenly I feel like I miss Levi?!

I felt like this is what I wanted with Aaron — I felt like I wanted a real relationship again. Now I'm not so sure. Suddenly I feel suffocated, like I can't breathe. I feel like I never get a moment to myself, I feel like I need to be alone for quite some time.

And I feel really sad, too, because Aaron is truly a great guy, and I wish with all my heart that I was ready for him.