Is a Meaningful Partnership Enough?
Is a Meaningful Partnership Enough?
Rob and I are on our way back from the brink — quite literally. Just hours ago we stood at the rim of the Grand Canyon, gaping at the void.
The contrast between utter geologic beauty of the canyon walls and vast nothingness between is almost too great. Standing at the edge, my heart pounded in fear, and yet I only wanted to stay right there, quiet, gazing, forever. And I'm glad I was there with Rob.
I never could have dreamt up a man more capable of change, more supportive in deed. He has grown up and stepped forward to be at my side this past year. With work he has worn away of outer layers of habit to reveal depth and nuance of character, and this transformation has buoyed our relationship.
And yet, there is the void. Our sex life remains underdeveloped despite the change and the therapy and the good intentions. Meaningful partnership with no physical intimacy is a lot to bear, and the sheer size of the nothingness brings to mind time. If I'm choosing Rob, is this really it for me, forever? How have I become okay with that, and how will I remain so?
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