I'm a sucker for inspirational books, blogs, and messages. I digest them with ferocity, and I feel at times that an inkling of the "fruit" is being emulated in my life.

I've written in previous blogs about my desire for change. I received comments to go for life's open doors, and to go ahead and seek out positive change. I'm feeling little tugs at my side again, as I realign the goals I want. I really think the biggest change for me is going to have to be my job. There are aspects of the job that I love, but I think I've grown out of my position. I'm not sure that the time is right, but I'm not getting any younger. I've cut my hair, lost weight, bought new clothes — so I'm almost totally new on the outside!

My ex took a lot of items out of the house, so I rearranged the furniture to keep the house from looking so sparse. There has been so much change. It is overwhelming. I know it is. Most of it, though, isn't the positive kind of change that I'm proud of. That's the kind of change I want — something to be excited about, and maybe even have someone else excited about it too.

I'm ready and waiting. I don't expect something to whack me in the face, like magic, and make everything better. I do believe in the power of coincidence though, and am happily awaiting a sign in the right direction.