Agh!

I've reached the point — again — where I need to replenish my attorney fees. I'm going to have to open a new credit card or borrow money from someone. I will also probably have to not make payments on my house.

My ex refuses to pay any portion of the house, even though he's aware of the repercussions of the home not being paid. He just doesn't want to assist me financially. It took him months to even provide any child support payments, and he only did that because he knew it was considered to be temporary.

I hate that people can be so cruel during this process. I mean, I know my attorney needs to be paid. But, does everyone have to be such an ass all the time? Why can't he just say, look, I'll pay a portion of the payment, but let's agree to put the house on the market, and we'll go from there?

I can make reasonable decisions, but not with someone else's name attached to everything I do, you know? I wish there were some easier options than what I'm going through. Financially, I'm going to be in ruins for a while.

But, after all is said and done, I will have paid to be freed from a horribly abusive relationship, and I'm really okay with that. Of course I wish that weren't the case, but the money involved is worth the investment.