I often wonder who this person is looking back at me from my bathroom mirror. What makes this even more confusing is that it varies from day to day.

One day she is my best friend, a person I can trust. Someone who has known me forever. Knows my weaknesses and is there to help and protect my inner self from the cruel outside world. I enjoy days like this when I am feeling confident and aware of my place in the world. Feeling as if I am a productive parent and a good friend.

Then there are the days when I do not like this person or the choices they have made. I feel this person is not qualified to make sound decisions and should not be trusted. I know this stems from my mistakes in life and I have a hard time letting myself off the hook for such things. These are the days I am feeling insecure about myself and my life as it is now.

Other times I float comfortably somewhere in the middle. I think this is the best place for me. I am aware of where I have been and am comfortable with the journey ahead of me.

I know all this is just part of becoming comfortable in my own post-divorce skin. There are things I regret and things I know were the right thing to do. It will be a growing process, learning to stand alone again and feel strong doing it. I am up for the challenge.