I've been single for the past two years. It still seems strange to me to be cooking for just the kids and me. I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone or not. But for some reason I still feel someone is missing at the dinner table.

If he were still here, don't get me wrong, I think I would have to poison him. However, all joking aside, it still seems strange at the table to just be the kids and myself. I'm not sure where this comes from or even why. I don't recall feeling this way after my other divorce and both marriages lasted around the same amount of time.

I'm not a big fan of cooking, but my ex really enjoyed the family dinnertime together, so this may be where the void is coming from. It wasn't as if he was going to help cook or clean up, but he was always ready to sit down and have a meal. Therefore, it's not as if this was a time we spent together in the kitchen or anything along those lines that I'm missing.

I haven't mentioned any of this to the kids. I don't want to plant any seeds and start something in their minds. Nevertheless, it certainly makes me wonder why I feel this way every time I'm preparing a meal. It actually makes dinnertime a bit of a sad experience on some days depending on my mood.