OK, so I didn't date a whole lot before I got married to my ex. I was 16, so never was in any kind of "scene," "pool," or playing people games. I really want to get out on the "market" though and meet some people. I know that I am a great person and I deserve to have some companionship and have someone appreciate me.

I do worry about finding someone that can have a respect and admiration for me as a person that has children, which I'm assuming is going to be somewhat challenging to find. Ultimately, I don't see myself having any more children. I don't really want more children. Not that this won't ever change for me, but in my mind, right now, what I have on my plate is more than my fair share.

I don't want to lie to anyone either though. I'm a very direct person and don't think it should be hidden that I have children — not to mention that my car has safety seats and my calendar is plastered with photographs of them. So, it would not be easy for me to hide that information if I wanted to, and I don't.

So, here I am world. I'm ready to dive into the sea of people and try to float amongst them.

Well, I posted a personal ad through Craigslist for male friends. I was very appalled at the reaction though. I received many responses with pictures and phone numbers, and I just wasn't prepared for that.

I'm an idealist — and was hoping for conversation that would lead to more discussion, and friendship. I'm just trying to stay open, connected with other people, and to get out there a bit. I've been sheltered, and the little voice inside me has told me to reach out there and get some new, single friends.

So, my idealism led me somewhat astray in the avenue of what the scene of singledom can provide. I thought perhaps I might be somewhat intimidated, but truth be told, I was just appalled. I thought it was just gross to have pictures and information plastered out amongst the scenes for anyone to view. I'm much more reserved, and I suppose even old-fashioned. I can live with that though.

I did start chatting and conversing regularly with one person, who seems to be as traditional as I am, and just having someone to communicate with is refreshing and fun. I can say anything and not have to be wary that I'm hurting someone else's feelings. The honesty and openness is new, and enlightening. I can take a lot more of that, for sure.