Sincere — Or Just Sin?

When I ended my conversation with Levi I was so emotionally drained I could hardly move. I mean, I was in shock. He had just done something that I never thought he would ever do: apologize — for real.

All kinds of crazy thoughts were racing through my mind. I wanted to believe him — I really did — but look at all he's done to me! I kept thinking, what could he possibly be up to?

I went back and forth all night. Maybe he's for real, maybe he's finally "seen the light." Maybe, maybe he's trying to manipulate me to that I drop the court proceeding, and once that's dropped he'll go right back to the person he was before. Do leopards change their spots?

Then I started thinking about his family. About how horrible his mother is. I kept thinking that if I allow Levi back in, and allow him to know his son — which I think would be the right thing to do — that I am allowing these people, these horrible cold people back into my life, and into Adrian's life. How am I going to deal with that?

I finally decided that I needed to stop obsessing on it. It will be what it will be, and for right now I feel better giving him the benefit of the doubt and allowing him to prove himself through his actions.