I think reconnecting with you were before your marriage is a good idea. And it is never too late fo fulfill dreams. But I hope you do so using the strengths that come from greater life experiences and with an eye on the future. I have struggled with the idea "Do I try to become the young woman I thought I was intended to be if I hadn't got bogged down in illness and a bad marriage" or do I accept where I am in life and accept my life as it is. A sort of broken down 55 year old. I decided that there is another option to try to become the 55 year old I was intended to be. This might not be the fifty-five year old I would have thought to be. But it doesn't mean that I have to accept where I ended up. A friend asked what I thought the difference is. A friend of mine who I went to school with, got married to her university boyfriend, had a family, a bad marriage and a divorce. She started to start over again. She quit her job, sold her house and travelled around the world. Everyone thought that this was a gutsy and rewarding thing to do which it turned out to be. However this meant that she came back in the position of a twenty six year old without a money or a job but without the youth and health of a twenty-six year old. She has had a rough time. Difficulty finding work, getting bad jobs where she is taken advantage of, drinking too much.. My first thought that this just meant .. in all things moderation. Then I decided maybe her mistake was to try a do-over. Maybe she should have said if I had travelled the world when I was 22 what would I be doing now. Well likely she would have not quit her job but maybe negotiated more time off or job sharing in order to travel more. I know a woman who takes two months off a year to travel for example. Another divorced woman I know regretted that her life was full of study. She envied athletes and people who had been brave enough to take a year off and be a "ski bum" as young people So she took skiing lessons, and tennis lessons and golf lessons not for a year but for ten years. She is a lawyer who works four days a week as a lawyer and two days as a ski instructor during the winter (the other day is for fun skiing) and goes to some ski school to improve her skills for a week every year and a week vacation for fun skiing. . She is always the oldest person in every course she takes and often has to repeat courses. She is on the board of a ski club and a ski association. She meets a lot of her clients through skiing. If she had taken a year off to teach sking at the age of twenty two instead of doing a masters in arts and then a law degree and then a master of laws, she would not be skiing all year now she would be doing much what she is doing now. So what would a person who values cross cultural connection and service do at your stage of life. Take an administrative job at an NGO rather than volunteering in the peace corp? Now I just have to figure out what I would have been like at 55 years if I had made different choices at earlier ages....... I will let you know when I figure it out. It is hard because there are not a lot of precedents ahead of us. But I think it is doable.