I'm nervous about my upcoming status conference the ones he had very little interest in pre-divorce with the judge. We're meeting for our second emergency motion for custody and visitation. I truly hope that the judge sees my ex for what he is. He's a corrupt individual who's just trying to punish me by taking away my children — and someone who just doesn't care to abide by the rules.

My ex's visitation is standard — every Wednesday evening and alternate weekends. The children are consistently late to school with him, he's careless with them, and has allowed our son to have candy with peanut butter in — and he's allergic to peanuts.

Last Monday, he didn't even feed them breakfast before school, yet he thinks he's going to prove that the children are best with him? The boys relay things he's said about me — either to them or in their presence — and it isn't pretty. Of course, I'm documenting everything.

With all of the information I have though, it's still very scary to consider that my children could be taken away from me. That I don't have any power or decision-making ability in this case — that it now stands in the hands of a judge and a guardian ad litem. I know he's trying to paint a picture that I'm such a bad person and influence. I hate that and I know it's not true.

My injunction for protection is due to expire very soon. My son came home from his last visitation saying that "there are going to be fireworks on November 21st!" Coming from a five-year-old boy, that alarmed me very much — that's the exact date the injunction expires. How would a five-year-old be privy to such information?

It will surely be addressed in our next meeting with the judge. I sincerely need some positive vibes — please!